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    Darkroom & Artist Books | Art School Diary #11

    It might sound a little strange but I came to a realisation this week that I do actually enjoy what I’m doing. Between all the stress of coursework and managing a chronic illness, it seems I forgot to enjoy my time at university. Between learning about the darkroom process this week and working on an editorial project it all just clicked. I really do enjoy graphic design and I’m glad I applied to university. It’s the reason why this flare-up of my CFS is so frustrating. Because I don’t want to be stuck at home all the time. I want to be in the studio working around others and taking…

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    Can I Be A Graphic Designer With CFS

    I am finding myself becoming increasingly frustrated with my CFS. I have so many different things I want to be working on just now (some of which I’m actually getting paid for) and I can’t because I’m so tired. This is mostly because I’m back at college and college work is more important than my personal projects. But it’s annoying because my CFS affects how much I am able to do day to day and week to week. I do everything I can to mitigate how much my CFS affects me, I used a bullet journal to stay organised and I’ve bought a few tools which help tiredness. But I’m…

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    5 Things I Learned From Having CFS

    It has been almost exactly 2 years since I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome so I thought I would do a little post sharing what I’ve learned from having CFS. Bedtimes are mandatory. In the past if I wanted to stay up till 3am reading fanfictions I could do that. Now I have a bedtime, it’s like I’m a child all over again. I need to be in bed by 9 and I need to get 12 hours of sleep otherwise I’m going to feel like death in the morning. I miss being able to stay up all night, I mean there is a very good chance I was…

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    Worrying, Books, and Moon Hitler

    I have been horribly unwell all week and as such haven’t been able to write any posts. So instead of writing something I thought I would share one of this week’s journal entries because journalling is a thing I do now. I don’t know why I worry so much, this time I was worrying about class because I missed 3 days. I mean I suppose it’s better to stay on top of things rather than let them slide, and I suppose it’s better to keep in touch with the college and let them know what’s going on is better than silence. WORRYING But maybe asking for help because I was…

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    Going Back To Education With A Chronic Illness

    So I did an update post a few weeks ago where I said that I was doing fine and wasn’t having any problems with my CFS… yeah I spoke too soon. Admittedly it did start out okay but the last three weeks have been awful. Its not been good at all, which is really annoying in a way because I’ve been enjoying the course. I like doing the work, but I’m tired all the time. I mean I’m tired all the time anyway (I don’t remember what not being tired feels like). But it has got to the point where it’s started to affect my mental health which is never…